There are those days when no matter how hard you have been working on something, you still have the feeling that you are not getting any closer to your goal. Not even by an inch.
I call these moments having the iceberg syndrome. When you work a lot on something, but the results are still not showing. Like all the hard work is under water, and so, invisible to others. And sometimes, even to you. It seems that you are just sitting on the tip of the iceberg, shipwrecked. All you feel is that you are tired and exhausted, even frozen. Not being able to do anything.
First some distraction. In my case it was watching some episodes of my current favourite series. Though the frames of the film, as an alternative reality, did take my mind off the whole thing for a while, I was trying to keep it in mind that I could not do this for too long, otherwise I would just keep hiding instead of facing the discomfort, fear etc. So the next step was coming out of my shell, telling the closest person how I felt. The best thing in this was not the understanding and the encouragement that I received in return, but the chance to say it out loud what was happening to me, what was frustrating me and while doing so realizing what I should do next. Something that I truly love. Working on a story. During the planning and implementation process of this site there were loads of tasks which did not involve any writing. In fact the last couple of weeks before the launch I hardly wrote anything. And I really missed it. So when I sat down in front of my very much beloved computer, I just felt this rush of enthusiasm. I remembered my original goal and why I wanted to start this blog in the first place. That I wanted some space to be myself, to write about things that I think have value, or in any way they can bring something positive, or happy to those people who read it. Looking back down the road till now, the journey seems long already, even though while creating my very first post I am just standing on the start line. But this is just the tip of the iceberg and I hope you will follow me to discover, what is down under.